FUCK! I just wanna hell that word so fuckin loud in front of every single person I meet. I don't know what's happening with me, feels like I'm wrecked, who the fuck am I? I'm lost! Overrated but.. FUCK! Am I wrecked? I mean, really?? It's like I keep yelling "get the fuck out!" at myself everyday, but I don't know what's wrong with myself?! I never enjoy all my laughing now, I'm faking the smiles on my face. I tried to spent my daytime with my buddies, okay it works, but when I'm alone, those things always coming, anyone can save me from the one that haunt me in the night?
I used to think sleep was my problem-solver, til I know now, it's useless. I always livin this life with a smile, but now, well, I keep smiling although the truth is not like the cover.
My girl, sometimes I think that she maybe would never know who I am, just like the others. Sometimes I need someone to be my place to spit out this fuckin messy things..
Andreas Bastian
